Posted on August 17, 2010 - by Audrey

Pearls

Yesterday I was transcribing a shred of a page from my journal and contemplating names for the folder I would place it in.  Options for the name of this folder floated through my mind: Fresh Heart, Pieces of Me, Shreds, Threads, Loose Ends... when randomly an image popped into my head.

I saw myself standing before God with hands lifted high.  I was holding a giant pearl and I understood that it was a gift He had given to me that I was now giving back to Him.   Light surrounded the offering and sparkling dust was falling like snow through my fingers.  I heard the Lord say, “Dust of Pearls.”

Uncut, unPERFECTED, unedited pieces of beauty rest in my journals.  They are thoughts, words, prayers and secret conversations that expose the process of transformation.  They are spilling through my fingers as I try to grab hold of the CORE of my testimony so that I can write it down and give it back to Him.  These words, phrases, poems and letters are the Dust of Pearls. They are the pieces of process– the whispers and the promises– that have chafed my heart to keep it soft on this journey.  They must be treasured and they must be shared.  I will try my best to let these words remain raw and undressed as left over pieces- shreds of me- that have escaped my grip as I sift through this heart to find the true stories.

“The pearl owes nothing to man.  It is absolutely a gift of nature on which man cannot improve.” – Fredrick Kunz

Pearls symbolize purity, honesty, spiritual transformation, charity, wisdom and integrity.  They are a representation of all the best within us and offer a clear vehicle for advancing states of wisdom as they provide a mirror in which we see ourselves.

The gift that God longs for me to give is one of raw words scribbled on blank pages. They are ragged pieces of sand that will transform into great beauty as I embrace them with my heart and wrap words around them until the irritation is gone and a perfectly round, smooth, white pearl remains to shout of His grace.

Pearls symbolize innocence and a pure heart as they reveal the process of waiting and praying.  A white pearl represents faith and this is what I hold as I wait.

I wait for His beauty to drench the tiny stones in my heart until a pearl is born.

I will keep wrapping words around the sands of my testimony, and in the mean time, I will let the dust of this process fall from my fingers and into this atmosphere.

DUST OF PEARLS…